National Conference, the last weekend, it took me almost three days to fully recover from it.
It was my first conference as LCPe, and as such I had more responsability, I was chief of the Uppsala delegation and had to make sure everyone were ok and kept the spririt up. This last thing was the easiest one I think, Uppsala have no problems with the spririt as I see it... :) My LC is wonderful! We got like 4 awards at the Official Dinner.

I experienced some harder moments, when I sometimes got frustrated or disappointed by myself when I didn't behave as the person and/or the leader I wanted to be. It is frustrating not beeing perfect.. ;-). I have so much to work on, and it was good to notice it this conference when I wasn't really alone yet but I had Safa there. Next conference I will be totally on my own.
I experienced that many more people "saw" me now, that I was more watched and I think that was true and totally logical. It's just something I'll have to get used to. This is totally connected with behaving as a role model 24/7, at conferences as least.

Another thing I felt, is lonelyness. Not for long but I felt it. I didn't know whom to turn to, when I was feeling all negative and all just... tired. This time I called an "external", a non-aiesec friend, we had a talk and then I was fit for fight again. But later that very day I realized in that I am not at all alone, that there are people to turn to. But it took me that bus ride to feel that.

It was cool meeting the other newly elected LCPs! They all feel like nice, cool people, can't wait to get to now them better! And even COOLER was it to meet my past 4 generations of LCPs of Uppsala. There were all there, at the same party! And they are all competent and great women. It felt mangificent to be around them, and a tremendous honor to get the chance to be the next in line. What a great legacy! I will not turn you down, guys, I will do my best. All of them had won either the "LC of the year"-award or "Excellence in leadership"-award.

So, in whole, the conference was great. It gave me some things to think about, I had some good learning points and I got strengthened by the appreciation I got and by the things that I did good, and also of course by my lovely LC... I feel a lot more secure about this. It's going to be great, and I'll do great because I'll put all my heart in it. Now, I am just waiting to start working, to get my whole team and to receive all knowledge I can get from Safa.

This weekend is very speciall to us here in my LC. This weekend our EPs finally arrived! We are all very excited!